a whole new world… ;)
March 11, 2009
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yeah i am not like quoting a whole new world song from Disney’s Alladin..
but i love that song.
it really took sometime to learn to adjust things as to where they should be…
and right now i feel like my life is really changing.. so many changes happening and i think i am really now living what they call life..
last night i really cried and cried to my dad because we had a misunderstanding and it all started because of a game in the computer which i want to play.. it’s around the world in 80 days..
cant find a screenshot yet but it was a good game..
you know what i feel> i cried because of things i should not be feeling yet.. yet i started feeling them.. may be this is really what having a work means.. you really face competitions and more..
for the last month i have been worrying a lot.. i was having problems wiht my officemates because of things i am not aware of. they were like always not treating me good.. and i am not blind so as not to see what they have been doing to me.. i hate it. and i really feel like i am inaapi.. i haven’t told anyone about this.. but i burst out last night. i am having problems in my office and also in the house.. it was as if they don’t understand me. and how would they? they don’t even know what i am going through..
they told me that i have changed a lot. yeah i did. tehy say it’s not a good change.. may be it wasn’t.. but i am just really tired.. my life has just been so much tiring and complicated right now..
lately, even my texting life is not really active anymoar.. times pass that i don;t even use my load.. and i was like stupid because i always register to unlitxt but i don’t really use it.. i don’t know what i want..
and i guess most of the people i think about now belongs to the cyber world.. may be it was just a way of me forgetting about the problems in the office., which iobviously occupies moar of my days..
it’s not easy doing this.. but i think i really have to fix things.. but i don’t know how to start.. may be this is just a part of growing up.. living things fast paced and living things with difficulties..
i really wish i could turn back time or even for a day feel again what it is like to be someone who is only dependent to other people.. but the sad part is, i never been one.. i have always been a person that people always depend too.. and i know it is a good thing., but sometimes i just get really tired.. it’s like they are all controlling my life…
i have plans.. for myself. for me. and for God. i don’t want anyone to interrupt..
but still., how can i make that happen if still, up to now, people are still depending on me..
i just really wish life would get easier..
wish life would be for me only. i guess that wouldn’t happen..
not unless the promised new world comes…
the next one that the Bible says.. and God will really fulfill that…
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